Sue's bragging about me not updating! LOL.

Okay firstly congratulate me cos i watched finished BOYS OVER FLOWERS!! Hearts to that show.. and i hope there's a 2nd season coming out cos the series and casts are so awesome!

p.s especially him. Lee min ho! How can a guy be so good looking? Like seriously.
Although i can't not agree with jan saying korean dramas are all exaggerated and deluded fairy tales. But still don't we all wanna be in la-la land just for once?
Thanks to mae and shen khai for recommending this series. I will always trust you guys' taste!
I can't wait to watch what sue recommended. According to my cousins, it is a pretty good series too. hmmm.. (:

Oh reminding me of sue. Her blog is now AMBASSADOR HAN? ahahha that's really funny somehow. We went ou on fri. Like together!! Ze sue-anne han and me. oh whatever.
Piccas time!





Hahahaha going out with sue was damn fun seriously. I felt really Jakun and sneaky all the time especially at those changing rooms where u see those promoters eyeing on you peeping "are those two really buying things or what" look. I just love those clothes and dresses. Why the hell are they so expensive? Gosh. I just can't stop camwhoring with my buddy. Plus she has a camera which can be silent.

My day really paid off- I finally bought a handbag. WEEEE! Btw, I have a one pathetic buck in my purse right now. Damn Broke. Time to top up. LOL.

I'm at my hometown now by the way. Just ate the scrumptious chee cheong fun with milo ais. Ahh. It's basically very heavenly indeed. Sorry i couldn't go Night safari with you steph. Hope you enjoy seeing lions and birds.

Songs that make you ooooohhh-la-la!

I tell you all I'm super super addicted to this song. It's so cow-boy and shaggy guys! jeng jeng jeng... Here's the lyrics.

BIG GREEN TRACTOR-Jason Aldean.

She had a shiny little beamer with the rag top down,
Sittin' in the drive but she wouldn't get out,
The dogs were all barking and wagging around,
And I just laughed and said yall get in,
She had on a new dress and she curled her hair,
She was looking too good not to go somewhere,
Said what you want to do baby I don't care,
We can go to the show we can stay out here,

And I can take you for a ride on my big green tractor,
We can go slow or make it go faster,
Down through the woods and out to the pasture,
Long as I'm with you it really don't matter,
climb up in my lap and drive if you want to,
Girl you know you got me to hold on to,
We can go to town but baby if you'd rather,
I'll take you for a ride on my big green tractor,

Said we can fire it up and I can show you around,
Sit upon the hill and watch the sun go down,
When the fireflies are dancing and the moon comes out,
We can turn on the lights and head back to the house,

Or we can take you for a ride on my big green tractor,
We can go slow or make it go faster,
Down through the woods and out to the pasture,
Long as I'm with you it really don't matter,
climb up in my lap and drive if you want to,
Girl you know you got me to hold on to,
We can go to town but baby if you'd rather,
I'll take you for a ride on my big green tractor,

Just let me dust off the seat,
Mmmmmm put your pretty little arms around me,
Hell yeah,

You can climb up in my lap and drive if you want to,
Girl you know you got me to hold on to,
We can go to town but baby if you'd rather,
I'll take you for a ride on my big green tractor,

Oh yeah yeah,
We can go to town,
Or we can go another round,
On my big green tractor.

Cute green tractor.

recommends:
rob thomas-her diamonds
eric hutchinson-rock n roll
Adam Lambert-No boundaries
Keri hilson-knock you down

I gotta feeling-B.E.P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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TO ME (:

Hahahah just kinda realised that im syok sendiri but praising and loving yourself is a one good thing. Seriously, u'll feel the 100 percent contentment (: Try it. Look in the mirror say, "i'm hot today." Muahahah i don't exactly do that, but yeah i do sometimes. (: BUT don't overpraise yourself lah and it'll be a nah-ah. I can't believe i'm finally sixteen, like really. Time passes so fast and i really, secretly wish that i do not grow up. Of course i can try all those pretty sexy curvy outfits but sometimes watching powerpuff girls can be really NICE. oh gosh, no burden. Thinking of how i've changed fr std 6 till now makes me freak out a lil bit. oh well. Life sure goes on.

Anyway, today i had the best bday ever (; Thanks to the bunch of hilarious jakun friends who are all really expert pretenders!!!! Now steph even joined them too. Leaving me alone, lousy at lying. GRRR. I kinda expect something at first (: (: which is no doubt easy peasy to guess (cos it's always a routine- birthday-someone surprises the cake-birthday song-canteen) How typical, honestly. Anyway, i kinda guessed but steph and jan pakat to trick me during lunch their car broke down so they couldn't come sch. I believed it. Gosh cz during bell ring they only came with basile with those wondermilk cuppacakes!!They made it really real and on time. GRRR. Mae also surprised me with those incredible homemade cupcakes. Yummy but no one took. Too bad (: I wanna thank her so much la, cos she's so sick but she still baked for mwah.

And of course to u guys, I LOVE YOU ALL TOO!

When i collect all pics, i'll post it (;

Class was literally dead today. When i meant dead, it's really DEAD. Even tough pei is sick and love life juan isn't loving life anymore. ;( i guess he has his moments. So jan, sue, ter, shing and ME of course are the survivors. Muahaha! I'm so glad. I finally felt a lil rajin than usual.


My antartica dream. It's a goal. I'll really visit it. I hope. one day.
God's magnificient creations. How beautiful.

My goals @ the moment:
1) Get a guitar and get lessons.
2) Learn to swim.

I seriously don't understand why my dad is so sensitive at times. God. I wish he could be a lil more open minded and not be in a nutshell. grr. It ruined my alrdy boring day.

gotta go, ppl.

This week has been a pretty rough week! SIGH, i honestly don't know what's wrong with my brain /mind or luck. I think i work kinda hard for the tests but i still kinda get shit results. Except for add maths which is smtg i'm proud of. Muahahaha fr E TO A! But i think it's a easy paper.

It's better be late than never so here i am wishing....
Basile ho youn janh-i hope it's not the wrong spelling!
jeng jeng jeng...
I've known this clown since pre-school actually and have been in the same tuition before tooo!! He was seriously a joker in the class and his fav. line was "woahwoahyeahyeah, i love u more than i can say!" I made him do this cz last time when he enters the class, he always do that buttoning up all nerdy look thing and seeks for Attn.. no offence, seriously. Omg basile, do u rmbr u teasing sarah about this guy chen tai about his vegetarian thing and about their children's name. Brinjal, potatoes etc etc. She got super upset? hahahah i rmbr those times when Sarah broke the chair, u didn't not just help her out but YOU laughed at her. That was really mean. But i've honestly never met a funnier and more exaggerating friend than u! Seriously, u always cheer me up with your lame jokes and make everyday shine. Good ol' basileee!

BORY
DEVAIN KUMAR
My first impression on him was ""woah, another roshan!""ya-da ya-da i know this is an unflattering photo of me. but for.. devain...He came to our school this year and i think i knew him through steph. (: A super long,tall guy. Seriously. Just look at our height diffs. heh he got super long fingers tooo, don't know well about his toes.hahaha GIANT.

So guys, HAPPY BELATED SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY!
HERE'S AN XOXO for you all!

ok, i've gotta go, mum's pissed off. Later i can't go for tmrw and sunday's outings if i make her scream.

The academy is-About A Girl!

I'm just so in love with music. It makes my head spin right round. Thanks to bren's music posts, i am now downloading new,hippy songs. heh, i'm just a lil outdated sometimes and need someone to update me. HAHA! I can't wait for tomorrow cos i get to see both AUDREY and MYRA! They are finally back from aus. This is the time of the year when all aus people come back even when swine flu is happening. It just can't get in the way of family and friends, does it?

oh my, when i think of myra, i think of our don't-you-dare-mess-with-me teacher. MRS MORTIFYING MAKES ME SQUEALS INDRA. She is damn kao scary i tell you and the weirdest of all, she always catches me talking. ;/ i think she anti's me.

jai ho makes me wanna dance, like seriously. But i can't, i can't even bend let alone, shake. uhh! The thought of shing dancing to jai-ho is hilarious to the max. It made my day. Juan went to climb mount k.k which is so outrageous and cool. I hope he climbs to the peak and put A flag with a big juan on it not like my uncle sign on stones. hahah!

I shall start updating more pics when my comp is fixed. (:

Rest in peace Rats and MJ.

I've come with random news to my post today or maybe it's not, u decide.
The king of pop or maybe more known for his all talented dancing hippy moves, Michael jackson, just passed away on 25th june. I didn't know this till my cousin told me and my jaw instantly dropped. The reason for his death still undiscovered. Somehow i think it's because of drugs or his skin cancer thingg. Maybe his body couldn't take it anymore, who knows?

P.S I don't wanna post a picture of michael jackson cos i think it's freaky. It's Not like i anti him or anything. He's a true legend but latter on was known as a freak by the media, which i feel really sorry for.

Anyway, here's a moment of silence* for him.

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Somehow, i'm kinda grateful not being at bio class that other day when they dissected the rat. When i viewed jan's blog the other day, seriously my eyes opened like times two bigger seeing that poor lil rat got cut up by this bio freaks who just wanted to see its intestines and stuff. Not like i like rats but... still. ): It died with such a horrible reason.

Here's a moment of silence for all those rats too. ummmmmm**

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Yesterday was the last day i get to see the hot doctor whom i declare is the most good looking doctor anyone could ever fancy. I feel OMG sad? Heh, 2 months later but still.. Here's a big xoxo to him for being such a caring and loving doctor always. He even wore my bra for me.

WTF?!

My cousin even rated him as CUTE. heh!

I can't believe the school had this emergency thing for H1N1 and gave everyone a mask to wear. Hahaha funny cos i don't think anyone would wear it all day. Thank god i'm not at school.
By the way, i am super dissapointed with my results. Ok, they are the least i care of but still..

43/100 for ADD MATHS?!- SCREW THE DAMN SUBJECT. gah! Which means i got a bloddy E.

Congratulations to Su mae for getting 3rd for elocution contest, u make me real proud Best friend even i can't watch it live! ):

till then.
To sucky add maths, u SUCK!

Save me from boredom!

I am bored stiff. Gosh!

It's been a week already since operation and stuff. Time travels fast eh?? Thinking back i really made a big decision and stuff And the times at the hospital were awful. Gosh i wouldn't want a repeat of that. EVER! I feel like an old woman killing time waiting for tues to finally come. My pleasures are pretty homey ones right now like watching tv for hours or sleeping my heads off. Ugh, i really wanna go school. I've never been this excited before even the day before school starts. Thank God for night time as morning will arrive. Just chatted with dan but i know they won't mind, they're back together! How funnily odd?!

I am waiting for someone to tell me my mid year position. I know i shouldn't ask cos i am scard but i am curious you see? Either ways i hope i am top 15. I hope it's not dissapointing. ;/ Fingers crossed!

Anyway i'm bored. Gotta find something new and do!

till then.

Believe it or not, I'm back people. It's kinda difficult for me to type so u guys better Appreciate! Sorry for all the wrong spelling and bla bla.

Mind you all, this post wouldn't be the loud mc. hahaha!

Ok so i went for the op and all was smooth and finally done. The thought of my days at the hospital wasn't as hooray like i thought it would be. The atmosphere is damn depressing i tell you. Nurses, old people, doctors, morphines, painkillers and more and more everyday. Ugh!

Just wanna tell you all, u guys really made my day for visiting me and stuff! really! The days without u all would be.. grr.. dont know how to explain. Omg the 2nd day, after Jan, Steph, mae and dan visit me i just had the energy to read the cards and uh hmm pei's one! Thanks so much people. ahh *Collects myself*

Thank you brenda for visiting me, that day i wasn't feeling that great so we didn't chat much! LOL, but the mags were great companies. (:

The thought of returning to school hmm maybe in two weeks time is a lil of a relief. Phewww. AT LEAST not for a MONTH!

Through this op, i really appreciate my parents and relatives like crazy for their i don't know EVERYTHING i guess! Ok, my back is getting tiring so bye.

P.s Sue, i saw some purple thing but i threw it away! haha!

Till then people! I will always update my blog cos there's nothing much to do really.

Just pop by at google.

I thinkk she's outrageously gorgeous and the other is smoking hot.

Jeng jeng jeng. It's jessica Stroup (silver) vs jessica Lowndes (Adriana). Both are casts of the 90210 series. Honestly, I think They are both prettier than the main cast, Annie.
Jessica stroup


I love watching her. She's so cute and have what-all-girls-dream-of perfect features. (:

Now, Jessica Lowndes.

Isn't she hot? Pulling off the stunning red lipstick and bangs. Just Jessica Lowndes.


OUCHHHHHH! Is that ty collins or what? hahaha! Spotted.

Okay time to do something else.
till then.

The suspense is killing.

OH-KAY. The thingg why-i-am-blogging bothers me.

The doctor postponed my surgery to this saturday but im starting to feel a whiz of anticipation, sweaty palms and etc. Why does he hv to torture me bit by bit like this. God, waiting for something is hard. Believe it or not, it's hard. The pain creeps in little by little without me knowing it but inside me the adrenaline is pumping. Hello, when the hell is it gonna happen?

Downstairs: My parents are discussing how to find a carpark at the hospital and throughout dinner all they talked about is my surgery. Okay, its normal. But still?.

Ok, blogging makes it worst. Let's not talk about it.

I love my laptop. Really. I LURVEEEE it. Cos it has msn and stuff compared to that crappy computer. Just that my laptop speaker is not functioning. Ok it's bad but i still hv my radio. (: Not too bad. I can live without music for the meantime actually. I chatted with almost everyone today. I am so gonna miss them. The thought of catching up with the speed of walking and homework sucks. LOL. I am a lil not grateful sometimes.

I think everything will be fine as long as i trust in god's miracles and his abundant mercy and grace. My love ones are actually being very supportive especially dad and mum. Dad has been really awesome to me. Not to mention everyone too especially FRIENDS AND RELATIVES. MWAHHHHHH!


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TILL THEN. I think im really going for surgery this saturday. Fingers crossed.

Lights, drugs and beep.

3,2,1. Lights on above patient.

Anesthetic injected.

Heart beeping machine *beep*


______sleep_____

five hours later..
Operation is over.

What am i doing? hahahaha.
The me on wednesday.

Firstly, I'm back people from my adventurous wild journey through the forest.

I am definitely not going there anymore. It was not as relaxing as a holiday should be but it was a really different experience. Back with my promise of many many pictures. Let the cameras start rolling...
Day 1

On the truck. Getting ready for our very first activity!

Hahaha bimbo turn into adventurous


Ter
Shing

The canopy walkway (:
Crazy Sue up high at bukit terisik

Group picture at bukit terisik. It was super tiring to reach this place so this picture is really worth our energy and time!

Day 2
Woke up with a lil muscle ache everywhere of my body.It was a sleepless night because 4 people share one queen size bed. Seriously man?! We slept on ter and shing's bed and they slept on ours, which turned out to be better. what the heck rite? thanks to steph's brilliante idea! Hahahaha juan was so funny, he banged the headboard twice. Pei, me and steph was giggling until the bed shake but we burst into laughter in the end. Juan got damn angry and he banged the headboard again!!!! We all ended up sleeping and ran back to our room because it was toooooo cold! Shing then tell some stupid joke about juan. hahahahahaha!!! Started our journey again with...

A visit to the underground cave. It was cool honestly, thinking back about it But the bats were damn gross. I saw a yellowish-green snake. EEEKKK! Every step i take i can feel the bats either shitting/peeing.

This picture is funny. Let me tell u why. Spot ter's forehead and he has a red indian pimple. LOL!

Kryssy sissy the cheer freak.

The other team on their way to night safari. Shen Khai giving his fakest it's-so-gonna-be-fun-smile. LOL!
Jangan Pandang belakang. Wtf?! Zoom in, i think zhen somehow has nicer brows than me. Wtf twice?!
Our awesome team. Devain can't be lala for good. lol!
Day 3
Woke up with serious aching everywhere. I can't believe it was my last day but i was kinda grateful too!Haha cos my sport shoes spoilt, my clothes stink, i ran out of undergarments, my hair was itchy, the food sucks. So yeah. BUT.
I MISSED ALL THE FUN FUN FUN ACTIVITIES. ;(
All the activities which involve water are with laili and steph. So ask them!
Breathtaking

Ok firstly, i blog this the other day. It went to the draft cos my comp keep lacking. Anyway, will come back with more photos when my comp is fixed.


till then.

Omg i sort of miss blogging. I mean when i compare my pathetic blog with my friends, I definitely have to update. Ahaha exams are finally over and it has been great since then. My great is not just g-r-e-a-t ok? It's way way better than that! Ok so let me tell u guys about friday,

Maths was easy and i was really glad they put it last, not acc or add maths. If not my mood would be totally down! Anyway, in the morning i was damn fuckin' pissed off at rozerin the maniac/pms teacher cos she shouted at me for no reason. Some of my friends say she's actually racist that's why. Hahahaha so i ended up crying. But luckily not everyone saw or she didn't send me to stand beside Mr chew. If not i might have a second thought of sue-ing that bitch.

ROZERIN- FUCK BITCH. Go home and train your horrible singing.


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Anyway let's not rewind back unhappy stuff. Ok so Maths was 2 1/2 hrs. Honestly, it was sort of wasting time. Cos On friday, Mr chew suddenly came up with this rule

No toilet.


Seriously, for two 1/2 hrs?? Maybe for lower sec can la? Poor bladder. I have to keep my urine for 1 whole hr. I felt like my bladder was about to burst or something! LOL.

Okay, so we went bangsar after that and celebrate *woots*. So i begin my shopping spree with a yummylicious lunch at Marmalade in bangsar village 2 with Steph and jan. The designs were so cute. Would upload photos sooon. So we had this turkey wrap thing ( which is really really delicious), carbonara and Oreo cheeeeese cake. It was definitely worth it only 20 bucks but all 3 of us tried new things. mmhmmm.

JAN: Omg this oreo cheese cake is damn good..
MC in her heart:*jan's gonna burp anytime.. i bet***
JAN: Mhmm *burp* *buuuurrrpp*
MC AND STEPH: JAN!!!!!!

Haha i realised jan will always burp after she eat like today at Pak LI. What a habit. Btw i stumbled across my sangat pretty long lost kawan, Jasmine Chan. She is no doubt really really pretty. Chatted a lil bit.

Honestly, my shopping spreee was not like what i expected. I thinkk i wanted more. LOL. In the end me bought:

1. A dress- chose my steph and jan. They really hv similar taste. Thanks to both!
2. Wedges- Blue. It was really cheap.
3. A butterfly belt. All 3 of us got similar ones. So funny.


Btw a really hilarious thing bout shing is that he went all the way to bangsar.. but...

He left his wallet in Steph's car. Omg damn funny right?
Shing is shing. (;

- i suddenly remember.. Steph!!..... What did u say about ter again in the car?


JAN AND MC: Damn damn damn should have recorded it! Ahhhhhhhh!

After bangsar, i went to jan's hse to bath and relax. Apparently when i told aunt christine that my dress was 100 bucks. She just smiled. I just know what she was thinking. LOL. I had a bad migraine, ate and rest. I saw jan's grandpa and guess what..

Mc: Who's that on the couch?
Jan: My grandpa!! I know right, he looks young..
Mc: Omg i thought it was your dad's friend!
Jan whispers: He's wearing a Wig.
Mc: Hahahahahhahahaahahha.

It made my day.*** hahahah i'm so evil sometimes. Under sue's influence too much. Lol

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Today, went church as usual. My friends were so caring ok? They knew i was going to go for my scoiliosis operation and guess what??

They bought me MUFFINS. It's the thought that counts sometimes. But it really made my day! ;) ** collects myself**

Thanks guys! I will come back with the new me.

Tomorrow is finally taman negara, don't know whether i should be happy or not thinking about it cos after this, there will be nothing to look forward to except my operation. S-I-G-H. That is why, in fact i should enjoy it to the fullest. Hahaha! Not like i'm dying or anythingg. But yeah.

Ok i have to pack my luggage. Weeheee.

I will come back with many many many pictures. Excitement awaiting**!

Always a track-you,me and 6.

I am gonna explode.
When i reached home, i was like i have to throw my tantrums somewhere. So i've decided to freakin blog out my feelings. o.r shall i say anger. Gah! ;( i H.A.T.E she. Omg, you know all this while i thought i can endure or be tolerant cos it's her attitude. Ok lah, so i keep enduring but until today, i couldn't anymore. It's like me rupturing. So i told my friends and we again agree. So it's not just me, it's everyone. We all think alike.

I feel damn dumb ok sitting beside her or with her. It's like ohh i can answer this and bla bla. And then when i do something which she think is damn STUPID, she will do-the-face thingg and gossip with her bff. Omg, am i that stupid? Why is she acting like she's some smartie goddess and we all must worship her with her DAMN BRILLIANT ANSWERS.

In this world, there are peeple less smart and always smarter. So don't act like u're everything la.

God, please forgive me. It's just for today. I feel so crushed ok?

Why wanna be the tallest when u can live life like the rest on average?

I feel like eating a cake. hahahaha.

Btw people, support WWF- A shelter to protect animals like cute cute panda. (:
Theta are selling t-shirts, batches and recycle bags. So buy em'!!! Remember a good deed will always have its blessings in return.


Omg Loook at them, Sooooooooooooooooooooo CUTE! (: THEY might soon extinct ;((((( I feel pandaly. Ok wtv that means.
Okay, time to study!

Shake of that bad image and let it fade away

Honestly, school kinda sucks without su mae! ahahaha she's like as stoner as me and both of us stone together at times! But we kinda roll along laughing at our evil inside jokes. Funny, she can always read my thoughts which is a lil Creepy.. ;/

This is MAE laughing (: according to matt.
I thinkk she might kill me if she sees this. HAHA but it's really funny.

Btw, the fact that Cindee will get a belly piercing is cool. I think it'll be very sexy (: I'm actually satisfied by the one piercing at my ear.

Juan misses ter today. wtf or shall i say ouchh. He was all weird and laughing at his own jokes to kill time. If im not mistaken, i thinkk he said about being gangster as ambition. I kinda remembered that he said philosopher on friday. hahahah honestly juan is Funny. I wanted to join them but when i look at my table with the unfinished pieces of my h/w, forget it.

Im kinda ... by the sight of she. After listening to many stuff, my view of her has changed. Sadly, i hope she realizes that she should be a lil more humble at times. I thinkk her best friend should call her up or smtg and talk about it seriously. Ok, it is none of my business so whatever. Just put up with her like .. say.

Today is damn boring. It's more than boring. It was a waste of time. Aahhh.

Superhuman-Chris brown

Omg i am once again blogging after a gazillion weeks. Sorrry to keep u all waiting! hahaha know u all love MAH blog! I was damn pissed this morning cos my bro was damn selfish. He keep using the comp all by himself and is still now- since ystd till now. All i wanted was to update my blog that's all and he was like use ur laptop la. I mean he ended his game alrdy but he still wants to play another. FAAK dota.

Anyway, school was pretty stressing me up especially now. Two more weeks to exam!!! 16 papers to go. And honestly, i am SO NOT PREPARED. I am also currently planning the taman negara trip with help fr steph and sue and its quite a success i would say. It's only 3 days and many ppl comfirm! Too bad Norlin cant go. But at least we got MR PUA. I hope i can find 30 ppl soon. Wanna settle it before exam. (:

Yesterday, me,steph,jan,bren and shing went to eat pork noodle for lunch! Yum yum and its quite worth the wait-30 min cos it's damn delicious but we walked there and back under the HOT SUN. AAHH i want another bowl weii. We shud all go together to try new food one day! hahahaha like i've told MAE we shud go on a road trip someday just to EAT! Like ipoh, melaka, penang,johor,kuantan,terengganu!! Someday after F5 MAYBE! ;D

I went to parkson with my mum yesterday to get some bed sheets as akemi in parkson has 70 percent SALE! My dad bought me a new BED just for my back! How shweet! And it's very expensive oh-kay??? Thanks to bedding fair by Harvey Norman- i got a 40 percent discount but it's overall damn EX- But it's worth it i guess! It's coming on MON! weeehheeeeee! So i got a comforter and bla bla. Btw so i din't know why but i went to bonita cos subang parade is DAMN BORING. Uhh cant they upgrade the shops or smtg? ;( Haha so i got a new fringe sling bag which i kinda wanted. I always wanted a white sling quilt bag! But it's okay, i bought it for rm38.70! Damn cheap rite? hahaha but the materials cant be compared with Forever 21 lahh! ;/ But u know we can sometimes hv a mix and match in fashion! ((:

Later at night, i am gonna go out with my family to celebrate Mother's Day!! (: Gonna watch The sniper! (: Ahh- hot edison chen and Huang xiao ming ;*

Beautiful saviour

Do you believe that God can help you, through rough winds and while sailing on wild seas? Do you believe that God can make the paralysed, a walking testimony? Do you believe in miracles that u think it's plain bullshit like Jesus' walk on the water before? When i was typing this, i can feel God talking to me, deep down knocking through my heart, " Open the door and u shall receive." Like he opens up the deafs and make them listen. Today i ask myself, how much of my faith do i put in god?

-Beautiful saviour is such a nice song. I was singing it at church and i was really touched. I mesmerise all the lyrics , process em and thought deeply of each word. It was ah-mazing.

I saw the doctor today at um hospital and he recommends surgery. I know the thought of it is like damn scary- like holy shitt. I was damn sad and depressed when i heard my first news from dr.shue at sjmc. i cried like some baby. It's a normal response lah i MEAN hu the hell smiles and walks back unless u've heard GOOD NEWS. I'm starting to accept it as it is. And thinking of it, a lot of ppl are way worse than me. Btw, dr kwan said a lot of really soothing words and he was really caring and nice. Mind u, dr kwan has gorg eyes. I was literally staring at it, it was a lil like zac effron's. whew-! Damn, he's old like 33. ;(

P.s i think his secretary is like a mistress and i think she drools all over him. wth. It's just my envious analysation.

Anyway, it's about the outcome, of course and prof surgeons. Dr kwan and shue are the best in town. So i'll let God guide me and speak through my mind.

Benefits fr surgery:
a) My spinal won't become worse permanently
b) From 40 degrees, it can become 20 and since i hv a flexible spinal, it might hv a better outcome, like 10.
c) I will get to walk straight and not afraid of any posture changes forever.
d) My lung capacity will be wider and organs and bla bla.
e) I will grow 2.5 cm taller because of my curvature before the surgery. that means i'll be 166 cm. (:

Please if u read this come to me quietly and ask questions. Please don't shout fr far or act ridiculously. I am sensitive and mind u, i am writing this to people i'm concern not busybodys.

I can't play on broken strings..

Going to school makes my problem a lil less depressing. Thinking of it, it's not that scary if it's for my big bright future. (: I realized how much my parents, church ajks and friends love me. Now to think.. if it permanently doesn't gets worst like 100%. I might do it. I mean how pain can it be? And i'm sixteen dude. Tak kan wanna wait till 70? Suffer more?

Today is the suckiest day. My fucking agent from taman negara says she'll send the quotation every night but no-action. Stupid-lazy-got money in front of her EYES, don't wanna earn while ppl out there have no jobs due to recession-???? Like wtheck rite? pisses me off, it's such a SIMPLE job. A quotation, how hard can it be? i mean it's her daily job! S-T-U-P-I-D. Ugh!

People like her make me racist. Damn it, i'm getting like 1% more racist everyday. She shud stay with the pigs weii.

-Jan is sick, so i can't blab that much. ;( Since she came, i blab like twice more than last yr. She is really hilarious not like cindy that pretends to laugh, nyahaha joking lah. But it's a lil true. ;)

There are FOUR persons that i can tell lame jokes to and not feeling lame back:
1. Jan da man. Too bad there's no fuschia here, but this color suits her bimbo-ness the most.
2. Pei the bionic woman
3. Bob ang
4. Kiss my ass- you know who you are (;

I can feel like i'm soon gonna turn like sue telling ppl lame jokes and laugh myself. hahaha! Sue has this funny gesture where she flaps her hands in the air while laughing. Funny eh, that's how the guys immitate.

Ok i have to do my h/w. So ta-da-da.

If u have a 50..50, Would u risk it for the better or let fate decide?

Today, is not a good day. In fact, it is my worst. What happened today is a mind playing game, a game so hard and tough, solid, like an ice impenetrable. i can't really describe it. All i know is that when i wake up the next morning it'll still be there. Waiting for me to decide. Today made me realised how weak am i at handling things. Today is a nightmare, God, pleasee u have to help and guide me.

I came back at 1pm from somewhere, all puffy eyes, drenched and mind shuffling with questions, i need answers. What he said, was it true or is it the fact that i am denying. If i do not do it, will it become worse? How can i not stop growing? What should i do??

In this situation, who can i believe?
- God take it all from me. Guide me to the path.

Whoever that reads this, must be curious of what happened. I assure u, im fine. I need a thinking space, that's all.

I am so tired, today is depressing, i can't blame anybody. In the end, it's still fate.

serenade me..

Firstly, I wanna thank almighty heavenly father/god/holy spirit/ jesus for letting 4 delta win 3RD in the top 3 drama competition! ( I'm super satisfied honestly, i didn't even expect it but we did it!!! yay!) i mean hell yeah, who knows we can honestly get it. Thanks to a bunch of hilarious and talented actors and actresses, thanks everyone for being together as a team, tho there were times when we were so mad at each other. I really feel bad for being so mean. ;/ Here, i wud wanna say sorry!

What are we gonna do with the 200 dollars?
-haven't thought of it tho. LOL!

I din't go school today, cos we were gna do some mad 5km run. So i am now blogging my time off. I am working my arse of for the taman negara trip .According to ms.lin i'll get the quotation and itinerary today. I'm bringing to sch tmr and show steph and sue ONLY. cos i don't want unwanted lame ass ppl kacau me like wat they did to sue for the pangkor trip. I don't want complains fr i-know-hu also cos she/he is like the person that bring everyone's mood down. I'm gna plan everything and perhaps after sports day or smtg show them.

I am gonna ask steph's dad on getting us a bettter hotel/ chalet wtv. cos the one they offer at t.negara is like a quite-ugly-dorm. Everyone will complain so bla bla bla. Can't wait for it actually since after i check everything. (:

Oh yea, talking bout ystd, i camwhore like a gazillion times. Especially i now present a camwhore throne to Hungry Han Sue-Anne! Whoever that wants to camwhore, it's her, your rank 1 buddy.

I am now gonna watch 90210 epi 9.. and catching a movie marathon later. Sice i've got all da itme baby!

Poker face!

Sometimes, when your friend introduces someone to you or otherwise, you judge that person before u even know him/her. I think its just a natural habit deep within me, i can't change. But i do feel bad. ;( I mean imagine i possess that, that would be sad, wouldn't it? Gah, but sometimes some people just look so weird u know, like u wouldn't wanna know them any futher, there is just this thingg i suppose.

resolutions: i'm gonna start to talk to the guy who sits at our lunch table without judging him. ( he won't read my blog, so watever, ;) )
- i have to be kind and loving and friendly from now on.. talk to the people i don't know like this girl in my class whom i haven't talk to her since school started. i mean i did la, Just a few words. Like," excusee me, can u lower you head a bit, so i can see the whiteboard."

what an unfriendly friend i am. But get to know me, then u'll know how fun i can be ;)


My mum finally came back from hong kong and china with lots of stuff for us( me and bro) He has freakin 3 sport shoes and i got a cute white one which i honestly like. I mean i've been wanting it cos i only hv a sport shoe at home which i use for bloody cross country every yr and running. So it's pretty old. I can sometimes be forget the old and love the new. Which is so bad!! Like wtf, back in two yrs i love that sport shoe and now i just chuck it somewhere in the shoe cabinet. Not just this u know, many other stuff too. Silly bad me.

resolutions: Love the old and new. (;
* Love the old more. ;/

Btw, steph thinks zinger finger perfect is funny. So it's my new line.

Btw 2, i think su mae was damn pissed just now for drama. Oooops. Sorry la k.

Btw 3, i didn't mean to shout to the class for that bowing practice thingg, it was an accident. ooopps. S o pls no terasa feelings or bitching about me la k. I know you all love me. ;p

dee dee..

Remember the cartoon we used to watch when we were 6, 7.... dexter laboratory? thinking back, i hate that show weii, its like THE lamest boring tv cartoon ever and ed, eddn and eddy, that green booogie show. BTW I NEVER LIKED COURAGE THE COWARDLY DOG. ;( It is soo ridiculous, dunno why steph watches it. nyahaha! This is the best week in my- alrdy- boring- life. let me tell u why.

1st I GET TO GO NEAL AND NIGEL'S!!!!! WOOTS AND CHEERS!
2nd I am having a Drama competition TOMORROW! it's like pretty scary somehow, thinking when i'm typing this.. I am feeling rather nervous just like butterflies in- my- alrdy- fluttering -stomach. ;/ i am dee dee btw. The name alrdy is sooo cute. THUMBS UP**

3rd I felt like a million years never been looking forward to dressing up! (and dressing people up..)

4th I might see dan. bego this week. hehe (:

All this contributes to a big bright week. YAY!

tmrw is the huge, big day. I hope everything will be zinger finger perfect!

For money, for love. (:

Ok so we literally hv 4 more days to our DRAMA COMPETITION. *Drum rolls*!! Sigh it was so hectic today, when mrs. k announced that we were supposed to perform on friday. Our script haven't even finish till tonight where Su mae, our dedicated friend, will be finishing. Nyahahah! i'm pretty excited thinking about it, imagine dressing up. Yay! I hope it turns out far than what we expected it to be( like super awesome making all the audiences gasps and turning other groups nervous, shaken up a bit) ok, that is why, as a role in the drama, i am gna play my role as perfect as possible! i hope we'll make it to the finals! *fingers crossed*!

My mum is going hong kong on wednesday and i gave her a list of things to buy! hahah what a useless daughter weii, thinking of it, i shud just tell her, "Go enjoy your trip, don't hv to worry us back at home, instead a list of to-buy list?!" hahah anyway, cos i trust your taste mummy! :*
I am suppose to tell my daddy about neal n nigel's party today. but umm, im scard he'll let me down, SIGH** I don't know how to do, last time he made a big fuss about steph n cin's party about drunkaholics. Aijoohhh, so i didn't turn up for saikit's. i actually didn't go out with the gang since steph & cin's. So im gna muster my courage.

Thinking of that, if i'm going...
1. neal and nigel's present??
2. su mae's??
3. pei's???????

ahahah, i owe hell lots of people presents!!

SAW TWO DRASTIC CHANGES TODAY...
1. MY BFFFFFFF BOB ANG SU MAE *drum rollllsss*!!!!! CUT HER HAIR BOB, Just like bob.
2. Kryssy sissy cut her hair to the wa-wa style. u know like china-dolls. But it actually looks good.

HELL YEAH, FOR MONEY, FOR LOVE.

Me, me, me! all the random photos i manage to dig!

My la familgia trip to japan with aunt!
MT. FUJI!
The pink kimono
Stanley, so cute!
Super cute rite this ice-cream. It's in the pink cafe in osaka, universal studios!



I loveeeeee this picture!
camwhoreee with new phone!

EARTH HOUR 830-930

MAE'S BIRTHDAY!

Have u ever dreamt of something really really good and in the dream, you were the luckiest person on earth not wanting to let it go, hoping that you'll stay continously like this forever? Waking up, feeling what the hell, a dream? I didn't go school today but i had the weirdest dream. Sigh, i realized i haven't dreamt for a long time till ystd. But it was definitely the weirdest dream. I couldn't wake up today again. Aijohh i feel damn lazy lah nowadays. i skipped sport prac and sch on fridays. Anyway, i got the pictures on mae's bday and pei came to school with a knee cast thingg. haha she broke her leg or smtg during cheer. poor her but she's getting well with it( i thinkk)! ;D So good luck pei! mae cried ystd, feeling all touched by juan and basile's gift. ohh it was sweet and thoughtful ok?

i want that for my birthday tooo! (:


Btw, JAN AND STEPH THINKS THAT DANIEL BEGO IS LIKE THE HOTTEST MALAYSIAN! they finally trust my taste! i know everyone is like mc, wth stop ranting about dan b. i mean we get it he's hot. but u know when u see him, you'll think differently, ok? 5 bucks for those, who is not boiling like firecrackers inside. oh yeah, i promised u guys that i'll update photos about me. see mwah's next post.


;)

i made myself not to blog ystd. Turns out, nothing paid off. In the end, due to all the slacking and laziness i still did not finish my h/w. So i ended up my 1st day in school, uncomplished and just like the other mondays. i thought those resolutions before hols wud help me to be a lil more determined. sigh!

Anyway, Today was mae's birthdayy my super lame vvip best fren! nyahahah i bought her a tiramisu cake with everyone sharing! (: she said she was pretty surprised and thanks to pei, i bought the right cake!

Happy Sweet 16th Birthday Bob Ang Su-Mae!

Before i forget i know i still owe u a prezzie, not accessories of course. ;P Ok my brother is bugging me now, so i will say lotsa more things in my next post ltr. Anw, hv a great one, i don't know why i'm typing this when i can say it to u in school tmr! hahah anw, attn sue and bren i alrdy link u guys so its your turns! ciaozz!

Let us turn back some time,




hahaha our first stay-together camp in port dickson, we were so innocent back then ;)How fast the clock ticks, it was when audrey came back last year and we were celebrating juan's 15th birthday! ;p

Us when we were so young ago, i think it was f2. This was during the recycle event, our class were so good and smelly. It was the first time when every1 was together. (:
My first outing with them ever. i still look old. ;/

Daniel bego on the most right, holy schmolly girls! ;*

Don't hv to dream of gaspard ulliel and chace crawford which is not going to be true after all ;)